2.24.2010

recent google searches....

Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)

Endocrinologist

Androgen's

Cortisol

21-hydroxylase deficiency

Congenital Adrenal Hyperplasia (CAH)

Non-classical Adrenal Hyperplasia (NCAH)

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This is my life right now. It's been confusing, maddening, scary, frustrating..

Nothing is yet confirmed.. we are in a holding pattern for a week or so.

these words just race through my head on a constant basis right now. If you see me staring at a wall wondering what I'm thinking, I am just running these words thorough my head over and over. they just won't leave me alone right now.

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My husband probably won't be happy that I posted this but i needed to get it out. I needed to open it up to the universe so that I can hopefully let some of this frustration go.

Right now I am sitting at work reading the same website over and over.

I keep hoping this isn't something that I will have to take meds for the rest of my life for.. but that is a very real possibility.

I keep searching for homeopathic ways to treat.. came up with 0 so far. Not sure there is a way. I could just let it go but then the hopes of getting pregnant are slim to none.


This is where i'm at.. it sucks... and I wait.

3 comments:

terra said...

if you need me, you know where to fine me.
try not to make yourself insane on the internet, all though i know how consuming the unknown living inside you can be.
love you dahnka.

Dahnks said...

Thanks T.. I muchly appreciate that. I'm looking forward to Friday. It will be nice to get out and see all the "pretty women". I need it.

michelle said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this, but I agree with T to not let the internet drive you crazy. Although I understand E's concern of putting this out online, I think it is useful to write things down and let the people around you support you. Remember that you have lots and lots of support from all over the place.