time for a new look & update

Haven't been out here for a bit and took a look at the blog.. decided i didn't like the look of it any more. So i changed the template i used and went with something a little more clean looking. I think it is easier to read.

Update: it has been a very long month for me. July started off pretty good and proceeded to hit rock bottom last week. On the first of July I received a new dog. He was a Pomeranian named Cody. He was originally Eric's grandfathers dog and after he passed away Cody went to live with a friend of the family. Recently the friend had to move and couldn't take Cody with her so he came to live with me. I took him to the vet since we knew he had a thyroid problem that hadn't been check for a few months and I also took him to the groomers and got his hair cut and him all bathed up. He was so cute and cuddly. I was just getting used to having him around and it was starting to set that he was becoming my dog, then last week he died. We figured out he was probably between 13 and 16 years. I had him for less than 1 month. I'm still pretty upset about the whole thing. I am clinging to my other dog Rudy right now. Poor girl probably doesn't know what hit her.. I have been loving on her (bugging if you ask her) since last week. Just the though of losing her scares me. I've had her for almost 9 years now. I just don't think I can take any more sudden deaths with my animals. 2 in the last 2 months is enough for a few years if you ask me. Otherwise I am getting on just fine. Got some loans paid off and still trying to get stuff done around the house. Still haven't finished the bathroom but we have begun to work on it again. Hopefully it will be done soon. We really don't have much to do now. Hard to believe that August is Friday. Depression is setting in again as this year has flown by. So much I feel I should have accomplished this year and I'm just not sure that I can now. Who knows..


Dr. Horrible

Well.. My brother sent me this.. and I think it is pretty amazing!
Give it a watch! Pay the $$ if you have to! JUST WATCH IT!




why is it that I can't seem to have what I want in life.. I'm so close that I can taste it but it still seems so far away.

A Dream of Mine: To be able to stay home with my family and my pets. To get up when the dew is still wet on the trees and to walk into my backyard during the quite morning. Open the door and turn on some quiet peaceful music. Turn on my wheel and feel the wet clay between my fingers. The heat off the kiln to fire my next piece. The coolness of the piece that I dried last night and to contemplate what colors it wants to be. I can hear the birds.. the jingle of my dogs tags that hangs from their collars. The morning sun shining through the roof of my little room in my garden. To go inside once the afternoon sun hits high in the sky to take a break and wake Eric from morning slumber. Eat.. relax.. Post a pic of my newly finished piece, shiny and plump like that pregnant woman I saw while shopping the other day. I painted it green like the shirt she was wearing.. the lovely curves make me smile and think of that woman who will never know how much she inspired me. Go to the store to pick up some pasta and fresh veggies for our dinner tonight. Sit back on the deck with my furry kids and my Eric and enjoy before I pack food for his nightly patrol. Sit in the library and read more of that book for my book club later that weekend. I love those girls and our get-togethers. Call it a night and climb into bed and snuggle up to Eric's pillow and take in his smell and wait for him to come home in the morning and wrap his heavy arm over me. Bask in that moment for a while and get up and start it all over again.

--- It's a beautiful dream.. I hope I can make it happen.. Wish me luck.